...random experiences, observations and thoughts of my daily life as mommy...past journeys and dreams of journeys yet to be taken creating my life story as i go...


Thursday, March 31, 2011

puppy part 2 and nablopmo commitment in april

i think sea looks a little bit like me in this first photo. not sure why i wrote that as my introductory idea, just noticed it...she is growing up too fast...they both are...time slips away before i can capture it in photos or writing and even worse i can't seem to keep it in my memories...i try to hard to hold on to too much...just need to appreciate the little moments and experience them fully...so i stopped blogging for something like 3 weeks and it was painful and easy at the same time. so i don't want to go more than 4 days without blogging in the future if i can help it...i think daily is too much for me but i nonetheless signed up for nablopomo for the month of april for several reasons:

1) i need the external motivation to blog more
2) i have a little bit more free time in april
3) i liked the topic of "sprout"...more on this later...
4) nablopomo is merging with blogher and the annual conference this summer is where i live here in san diego...if i end up attending this i'd actually like to be an active blogger

i'm so scattered and tired and distracted...so here are a few more photos of our new puppy kyra that took forever to load and they seem to be low resolution and fuzzy but at least the idea and movement of the moments is still here...
here she is with 3 of her other litter mates...
following us everywhere (while my husband was shaving)...
while story watched t.v...






and even fell asleep with story...


i think i ended on these photos of sleep unconsciously knowing that is what i should be doing...but alas i'm plugging away as my whole family is sleeping much more soundly than i expected and i'm cherishing the free time knowing how limited it is but knowing at the same time any day now i'll have too much time and wish my children needed me more, clung to me, were little and vulnerable and nagging and hanging on me...i feel like i'm missing these things even while i still have them! oh the conundrums of living life and trying to capture it...

i was hoping to do a photo a day for 365 days but i don't really think/write like that...so maybe at the end/beginning of each month i'll go back and do a month recap of all the photos and experiences i photographed but didn't write or blog about...

i also have decided not to follow so many blogs this time. i was trying to be fair about commenting and keeping up with people's blogs but it was at the expense of writing in my blog, living my life, time with family. so for the month of april while i'm blogging every day, i'll allow myself to read one meaningful blog and comment while the photos are uploading for that day's post. i'm committing to this publicly which is funny because i have few readers but the few i'm going to go back to comment on are people i really care about...two i'll share with you here:

on the topic of meaning, my local friend andrea is writing about 365 days of meaning here and my blogger and fellow mommy friend amanda of i am mommy just had a new baby along with some amazing newborn photos here...if you are looking for people with integrity, sincerity, good writing, meaningful dialogue/questions, you should check these blogs out!

"mommy i'm ready for my new life with our puppy"









Monday, March 7, 2011

idealizing my moment in the castle top with my daughter

yesterday was my son's 3rd birthday party...i took over 500 photos and have a lot of details to share at some point but for now the idea stuck in my head (and all i have time for) is the moment i spent with my daughter after everyone had left and my son and husband were taking a nap...i made myself get up out of bed, turn off the movie i put on for my daughter and said "sea, let's go have 1 hour of mommy and sea time in the jumpy house!" she didn't hesitate...we played chase, jumped to different colors, ran in circles, climbed, slid, slid upside down backwards, she slid through my legs, through a tunnel, we read books...but my favorite moment is when we had climbed up together on the perch in between this jumping area and the top of the slide and i was looking out of the windows, down the canyon, around our yard, the grey skies above and it was gorgeous and photo worthy and I WAS OK JUST EXPERIENCING IT INSTEAD! this is ironically, the photo that was never taken, the picture that stays in my mind the most vividly from the party! it was lovely and i'm so glad i took the extra time to be with her...wish i'd done the same with my story before i got too caught up in party prep and maintenance...

just as we were about to finish playing in the jumpy sea made this sign right outside the entrance:
"mommy and sea's jumpy house. sign your name"...she told me i had to sign in before entering...here is one photo of story telling everyone he is now THREE...more photos to come...

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

photo shoot of chewey and hopie hanging out with preggo mommy charity

i absolutely adore this photo of story (chewey). he makes this smile all the time but it is so hard to capture it on the camera...he adores his little friend "hopie" shown here in what was supposed to be a photo shoot of hopie and her mom pregnant...story is also in love with hope's mom, auntie charity. i've told her several times i'd love to skip the dating phase and just make an arranged marriage between story and hopie.

story turned 3 this past sunday. his birthday party is this next weekend and he informed me on the way home from driving sea to school that he only wanted hopie to come. i said what about me? and he said, "oKAAAAyyy, you and hopie's mom can come, too but no one else"...following are way too many photos of the same shot...but somehow this provides a movement and captures the energy and love that was surrounding these moments we shared yesterday...i'll let the photos speak for themselves...












on the topic of babies and pregant...this is the card sea made for auntie becki's baby shower...with the baby outside of her tummy...