sunshine on my belly

dear friends, family and online diary...sorry for all the belly shots but i've been nostalgic about this possibly being the last time that i'm pregnant...this photo was taken almost a week ago so the baby is both bigger and lower now...latest stats are 80% effaced, 3 cm dilated, cervix very soft and head VERY low...at my last dr.'s appt (2/22) his first comment was a disclaimer about his wrong prediction of the baby arriving on my birthday (2/15)...i remember commenting at the time that was a sure way for the baby to be overdue...he gives me up to a week but wouldn't make any predictions. i thought as soon as i put my mom on a plane and my sister couldn't come...and i was told that labor and delivery was completely booked with no beds...i would go right in to labor...

but here we are 2/24 and my mom will be back in town in just a few hours...it has been raining on and off all weekend but sunny as can be right now...

which leads in to the topic of my post "sunshine on my belly"...many of you know how much i love the sun. and for some odd reason i've really wanted a sunny day to deliver this baby like it will symbolically reflect my radiant love or protect me from the "blues" of depression or something idealistic like that...

i'm actually in a pretty good place psychologically right now. i feel ready to have this baby and have worked out many of my unresolved anxiety issues...i had a good cry about my dad not being here (i'll save this for another post) and now the weather forecast is for sunshine all week ...

well my sister is in town so we are off to whole foods for a yerba matte latte...more later...