lists, nablopomo, resolutions, kindergartens, reunions...ties

february 1st, 2010...somehow i'm treating this like jan 1st complete with goals for the month and year, new year's resolutions, fresh starts...guess i'm at least a month behind on these things...i also love lists. so this post is all about my list of things to do...things to get out of my head, out of my closets (literally and figuratively), out of my life...and what to fill my life with instead...

this photo of sea was taken at one of the many kindergarten orientations that we have attended the past few weeks...she is contemplating something...probably what to do next but more philosophically, what her life will be like when she is in school and away from spending every hour with her mommy and brudder story...or maybe i'm projecting way too much on to her experience and analyzing what was probably just a simple moment of pause in her life...

either way, i've had so much anxiety about this process. i should add that she is both starting school in the fall and i am attending (and helping to plan) my 20 year high school reunion this year. this brings up all sorts of issues for me (i went to the same school for 12 years so i was just a little older than sea when i started) and though i would overall characterize my school experiences as quite positive, i was often very depressive and felt misunderstood by most people (my peers and adults and teachers). much much more about this in future posts. along with what i'm hoping to achieve for sea when she is in school. and the process of resolving these two independent yet related issues. and letting go. and trusting God and myself and sea and my husband and the process...

so appropriately, the topic for february at national blog posting month (nablopomo) is "ties"...so despite my struggle with quality versus quantity, i have decided to challenge myself to blog every day this month. i figure i have so much anxiety and so many things tied together in my head that i might as well get these ideas down in my blog...and the more often i get them down, the less likely they are to build and take over me and this process...so join me in this ride and throw in some comments...your experiences, opinions, share...